I think I’ve just gotten to that point where I just can’t be bothered anymore. With like anything. All I want to do is work and focus on my jewellery label. I don’t have time to hang out with people who I don’t trust or don’t even want to. I shouldn’t have to restrict myself from telling people about certain things. If they were a true friend, I should be able to say what I want and know that not a word would get out.
I don’t want to be around people who like to hang out with others so that they can find stuff out about them, not because they’re interested but because they can make friends from it by talking crap about them to other people. I don’t need people like that in my life. Nobody does.
I’m so sick of having to put effort in with people who I couldn’t care less about because I know that they have stabbed me in the back before.
I’m honestly just so caught up with everyone, and feeling like I HAVE to be friends with people that I’ve lost myself. Maybe not literally, but almost.
I’m just tired. Tired of having to pretend that I care about certain things when I don’t just so people don’t think badly about me.
Don’t get me wrong, I do care, I care about a lot of things. I just want to stop caring about all the wrong things.
All I want to do now is honestly just hibernate. I need to stop going out. I need to stop talking to people I actually don’t even want to talk to. I think I just need to start focusing on myself.
Eh. Why does life require so much thought and effort. I was definitely meant to be a cat not a human.